Heavy

Willing Surrender


July 27, 2002

I surrendered my trust to you
I opened my soul to you
And I thought you knew...
But I was wrong
You were my all knowing
truth showing, freeflowing
Ultimate source
But I was wrong
You told me you knew everything
I thought you knew everything
I thought you were perfect
But I was wrong...

You deny me
That chance I was born the right to earn
But I can't fight you
You are in control of me

Why did you fool me?
So I would live to be shattered
To see your flesh and blood
As real as mine?
Why did you torture me?
So you could skew the way I see
To see your trembling indecision
As real as mine?
You can't see me
You have no loyalty to me
No I can see your failures
As real as mine...

I lost my right to humanity
Another sheltered life denied
Another distant god defied
I met insanity
I tried to blame it on you
I want to sleep now where I lie
I want to just give up and die
It's never through....

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